To my son

Dear Son,

I write you this letter with hopes that you will read this one day and realize the potential you have as a young man and chose the path that fits you best. Wether it be right or wrong(I hope right) I wish you nothing but success.

On 2/8/18 you stole from me hopefully for the last time. I decided enough was enough and you had to go.

Of course it’s winter time and the only clothes you took with you are suitable for maybe fall. I tired to reach out to you so you could come get warmer clothes and some warm food. You told me twice you’d come but you never showed.

I pray for you every morning and night that you find the right path. I ask myself everyday “where did I go wrong with you!” “Did I do anything wrong?”

I know you didn’t have the easiest time growing up, you did have a rough start being born Pre-maturely,staying in the hospital for 4 months. Being my little bubble boy fighting RSV at the age of 2 and then going through school with ADHD and Depression. If it wasn’t for all of your grandparents I’d probably would have fell apart trying to raise you alone.

Over the years I’ve shown you how to give back and do for others less fortunate, preparing sack lunches handing them out. Giving gift cards for food…..seeing your face of enjoyment when doing that made my heart melt each time.

Knowing your are now out there on the streets with the people I strive to help breaks my heart. I know you have friends to stay with and I know your okay for now. I hope you get things together soon. I’m proud to hear you have been looking for a job.

I want you to know you are my first born, my only son, and my first love. I will never give up on you and I am here for you. I just can’t have you in my house anymore the stealing and disrespect has gotten out of control. I pray one day you will forgive me.

Love mommy

Winter = Dry Skin = Sadness

Here in Colorado you should already expect to have dry skin. Winter time is horrible for my skin I feel like I should be applying lotion every 10 min. I don’t want to do that, I don’t think anyone would lol. So I broke down and went to Bath and Body Works because I had a gift card and a coupon. I bought the “Hello Beautiful @ Ultra Shea Body cream. The scent is light and refreshing not to over powering which is awesome.

I used it the first time just in the morning by the time I got off of work 6 hours later I noticed I could use another application.

The next day I did he same application in the morning and while at work I did another to my arms and when I got home I showed and did another application.

The next morning I noticed an improvement overall in my skin texture. I’ll keep it up for the week and see how it improves. Or not…..

Denver Weather, Tanning and Work

It’s a cold one out there Denver! Roads are slick and it sure doesn’t look like it is going to get any warmer. Since the schools are closed for Martin Luther King Jr. day the young one is sleeping and my oldest is playing video games like usual.

I forgot to turn the heat on.(until 5 min ago) So I write this from the bed in my covers where I do not want to leave anytime soon….

Since I am the adult and I do have work I must get up and out of this comfy bed. I think I will stop and tan, you  know to warm my soul so I can take on this cold weather, stop at Safeway and get some food for the day and then head on into work. Since I have demoted myself I don’t have to go in so early I do like that, then again I am supposed to show my replacement how to do the basic functions of my job :/. I guess I will go in a little early nothing like working 10-12 hour days after you demote your self…it’s okay I guess overtime is appreciated these days..but I must find a way to not work so much! That is the whole purpose of this right?

It is currently 19 degrees out so cold it is there isn’t any snow as of yet so I wonder if it will come high of 24 that seems about right, I guess I shouldn’t be complaining we have had a pretty warm winter and I do live in Colorado. Make sure to bundle up and stay warm my friends!

**UPDATE**(15 min later)

It’s not lightly snowing and everything on my car is frozen 😢be careful out there!!