To my son

Dear Son,

I write you this letter with hopes that you will read this one day and realize the potential you have as a young man and chose the path that fits you best. Wether it be right or wrong(I hope right) I wish you nothing but success.

On 2/8/18 you stole from me hopefully for the last time. I decided enough was enough and you had to go.

Of course it’s winter time and the only clothes you took with you are suitable for maybe fall. I tired to reach out to you so you could come get warmer clothes and some warm food. You told me twice you’d come but you never showed.

I pray for you every morning and night that you find the right path. I ask myself everyday “where did I go wrong with you!” “Did I do anything wrong?”

I know you didn’t have the easiest time growing up, you did have a rough start being born Pre-maturely,staying in the hospital for 4 months. Being my little bubble boy fighting RSV at the age of 2 and then going through school with ADHD and Depression. If it wasn’t for all of your grandparents I’d probably would have fell apart trying to raise you alone.

Over the years I’ve shown you how to give back and do for others less fortunate, preparing sack lunches handing them out. Giving gift cards for food…..seeing your face of enjoyment when doing that made my heart melt each time.

Knowing your are now out there on the streets with the people I strive to help breaks my heart. I know you have friends to stay with and I know your okay for now. I hope you get things together soon. I’m proud to hear you have been looking for a job.

I want you to know you are my first born, my only son, and my first love. I will never give up on you and I am here for you. I just can’t have you in my house anymore the stealing and disrespect has gotten out of control. I pray one day you will forgive me.

Love mommy

What a day!!!

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WOW!!! Today was amazing! And let me start by saying it has been so long that I actually went out and did something FUN!

This is my first weekend in forever that I didn’t have to work. My plans were to deep clean the house , thank God for my friend she called up and said her daughter wanted to go to the aquarium for her Birthday. I said why not I’m not doing anything else lol. So I packed up my daughter and away we went.

First let me tell you these girls have never met before so we were both a bit nervous for them to meet. They took us by suppose! They instantly hit it off and they want to be BFF’s!

That’s actually such a good feeling because my daughter doesn’t have a lot of friends outside of school. I know that sounds weird but she doesn’t like to hang out with them unless they are at school.

Well…. anyways we went to the aquarium and then had dinner at Long Horn Steakhouse. At the aquarium we saw some beautiful jellyfish,sharks and colorful fish. The tiger wasn’t out that was a bummer but okay. Oh and the girls fed the sting rays and got their faces painted.

I am so full of food, Love and laughter I really needed today and can’t thank my friend enough. Now it’s time to my down and relax.

I’m attaching some photos of our time at the aquarium.

Day off!!!!

So for the past few months I have worked 10 hour days basically 7 days a week and that definitely is NOT working smarter instead of harder. So I decided to take a day off my daughter went to school so I had a good 6 hours to myself. I had plans on cleaning up (spring cleaning) shopping and starting a nice dinner for the kids.

The plans well 50% got done the other half I found myself doing nothing absolutely nothing just sitting on my couch with a snack and the T.V. on. A few times I said to myself get up go do something, but my laziness prevailed lol. I watched shows like Maury and Judge Judy shows I’d never normally watch but they had my attention yesterday.

Soon it was 3:30 and my daughter came home, so mommy mode turned back on. I made her a snack and started dinner.

To be honest I don’t know how I feel about taking the day off. I feel like it was something needed and had to be done to save my sanity. I should have gotten a lot of things done but of course my body had other plans. Maybe I needed to just do almost nothing for a whole day.

Next time hopefully I’ll have more than one day off and I can feel like a productive person, what’s better though taking a day off during the week or the weekend? Hmmmm….

Couponing woes

Good ol’ coupons. Where would I be with out them? Well for one I would probably be doing something more constructive with my time (probably not).

I actually love the game of couponing the thing that bothers me is I never save what I think I should be lol.

Every Sunday morning I get up go outside to see my paper was not delivered once again but there is one at the house next door, no one has lived there for almost a year and all the sudden they get papers?

It’s like a part time job really. Thank goodness for the papers coupon line up every Tuesday or Is fail miserably at this job.

I really do refuse to pay for anything full price. It’s hard doing it but it is so worth it. I enjoy getting discounts and saving and then most places I shop I have a rewards card with and I get a reward here and there depending on how much I spend in a month, week or day.

I really don’t like those couponing extremely shows, it’s not realistic and it is annoying to know they got to break the rules for coupons and get a buttload if stuff for free basically and I can’t do the same.

I have actually slacked the last few months and my pantry and linen closet are looking very empty. I have been working 60 hour weeks as of late and I just don’t have the energy to look clip and shop. I do still use the savings app provided from my grocery store so I am still saving just not as much as I’d like.

What can I do? How can I get myself to balance my hobby and work? Time will only tell. If your reading this and you have some ideas throw them at me PLEASE!

Purposeful Mommy!!

Hey there! My name is Jessica and I have decided in my attempt to find a way to make my life easier, balance work, home and life I’ll share all my ups and downs with you the reader. You can laugh at me, cry with me or just be angry for me. You can be all 3 if you want. I usually have 3 to 4 feelings in an hour.

I am determined to make my life balanced and worthwhile, I want to raise my kids with ease, save money and work less.

So join me on my journey and feel free to help me with my errors!