What is your heart worth? 💖💔

To love or be loved is something everyone experiences. What you do with it is up to you.

Some people are out here to love no matter what. They get joy from loving others. It gives them a feeling of appreciation and love back even if it’s not genuine.

How do you feel complete? Do you love yourself? Do you love yourself enough? What is enough?

I always wanted to be loved as much as I loved it just hasn’t happened yet. Maybe I don’t love myself enough? Maybe it’s me? Maybe I didn’t love hard enough? Those are questions I ask all the time. I have two kids 11 years apart been in abusive relationships, I’ve been though it all. Now I am on a path for self love to be right with myself and my God. I find now that the guys that have done me wrong before are coming back.

I’ll admit the attention is awesome. Knowing they still find me attractive is awesome.

Then I look back … these men didn’t give a darn about me before they wanted what they got. I did way more than I ever should have because I didn’t get anything in return. I got cheated on, beat, humiliated, and barley looked at.

I think my relationships have driven me down the path I have gone. There are things I wish I could change things I hoped weren’t in my future but it is what it is.

I get asked all the time why I help those who are in need even though I’m in need sometimes. Well I believe I will be rewarded one day God has a plan for me I have a plan my life may look dim but my children keep me going and knowing that I can help one or 15 people with my reaching out will heal my heart and I will be rewarded with the love I deserve.

So in conclusion I’m not one to give up. I am not one to play the victim. I know my heart is worth more than gold and one day my king will be delivered and I will have everything I deserve within a relationship until then I’ll remain humble and single but my heart knows it’s worth it all.

Don’t ever sell your self short. Be true to you.

Giving Back/Paying it Foward

Help Me Pay it Foward!

I do what I can in general to help people in need. I have been in the position where I was the one who needed help and thankfully there were people and organizations who helped me. I can’t thank the people and organizations who helped me enough, so I try to do something once a month to help out those who are in need.

I’ve done things like prepare meals, pass out gift certificates for clothes or coffee, donated my time to write resume’s and job applications for those who are looking for employment coming out of prison or who are homeless.

This year I decided to go bigger, get the homeless men, women and kids things they normally cant get because of funds or the shelters don’t have enough supplies.

This month I am preparing basic hygiene bags for men and women. I hope the next time I can do children as well. Just because you might live on the streets doesn’t mean you shouldn’t take care of your self . I believe your hygiene is one of the the first steps to getting the confidence you need to do more.

I have started a Youcaring.com account to help me raised the funds needed because each kit is around $5.00 per person for 8 items, 9 for women. I have put $500 of my own in which will make 100 kits, I am hoping for another 100.

 

Thanks for reading if you can help in anyway that would be appreciated.