At my age you’d think I’d have someone to call my own, my love, or whatever you decide to call your spouse. My mate just hasn’t been found yet, well I like to think I have met him but for some reason we just didn’t work out at that time.
It’s really funny to me that I even have the courage to talk about this because it is silly and weird and a little crazy.
I tend to date guys I’ve already dated or have been friends with for a long time. I call it my recycle method. And usually it works for a while until I get reminded why we didn’t work out in the first place. So your probably wondering like many of my friends do why don’t you go find someone new!?
Well I don’t have a answer to that question. I don’t have a hard time meeting someone new, I do lose interest quick or I find myself wondering to many negatives about the guy I just walk away and leave him alone. Most of the time I don’t hive the guy enough time to make a big enough impression on me. Recently out of the blue with in days of each other I had 3 ex’s reach out to me one was just saying hello (he’s married) and the other two are wanting to try it again. Both of the relationships were not long around 6 months one is local and one is long distance. I’ll admit it’s nice to be thought of, brings my self esteem up a little. But I don’t know what’s wrong with me lol. I like the attention and I don’t want to lead either on because I wouldn’t mind being in a relationship with one of them I’m just having super commitment issues. What can I do!? I’ll sleep on it and write some more later lol.
I write you this letter with hopes that you will read this one day and realize the potential you have as a young man and chose the path that fits you best. Wether it be right or wrong(I hope right) I wish you nothing but success.
On 2/8/18 you stole from me hopefully for the last time. I decided enough was enough and you had to go.
Of course it’s winter time and the only clothes you took with you are suitable for maybe fall. I tired to reach out to you so you could come get warmer clothes and some warm food. You told me twice you’d come but you never showed.
I pray for you every morning and night that you find the right path. I ask myself everyday “where did I go wrong with you!” “Did I do anything wrong?”
I know you didn’t have the easiest time growing up, you did have a rough start being born Pre-maturely,staying in the hospital for 4 months. Being my little bubble boy fighting RSV at the age of 2 and then going through school with ADHD and Depression. If it wasn’t for all of your grandparents I’d probably would have fell apart trying to raise you alone.
Over the years I’ve shown you how to give back and do for others less fortunate, preparing sack lunches handing them out. Giving gift cards for food…..seeing your face of enjoyment when doing that made my heart melt each time.
Knowing your are now out there on the streets with the people I strive to help breaks my heart. I know you have friends to stay with and I know your okay for now. I hope you get things together soon. I’m proud to hear you have been looking for a job.
I want you to know you are my first born, my only son, and my first love. I will never give up on you and I am here for you. I just can’t have you in my house anymore the stealing and disrespect has gotten out of control. I pray one day you will forgive me.
Good ol’ coupons. Where would I be with out them? Well for one I would probably be doing something more constructive with my time (probably not).
I actually love the game of couponing the thing that bothers me is I never save what I think I should be lol.
Every Sunday morning I get up go outside to see my paper was not delivered once again but there is one at the house next door, no one has lived there for almost a year and all the sudden they get papers?
It’s like a part time job really. Thank goodness for the papers coupon line up every Tuesday or Is fail miserably at this job.
I really do refuse to pay for anything full price. It’s hard doing it but it is so worth it. I enjoy getting discounts and saving and then most places I shop I have a rewards card with and I get a reward here and there depending on how much I spend in a month, week or day.
I really don’t like those couponing extremely shows, it’s not realistic and it is annoying to know they got to break the rules for coupons and get a buttload if stuff for free basically and I can’t do the same.
I have actually slacked the last few months and my pantry and linen closet are looking very empty. I have been working 60 hour weeks as of late and I just don’t have the energy to look clip and shop. I do still use the savings app provided from my grocery store so I am still saving just not as much as I’d like.
What can I do? How can I get myself to balance my hobby and work? Time will only tell. If your reading this and you have some ideas throw them at me PLEASE!
Hey there! My name is Jessica and I have decided in my attempt to find a way to make my life easier, balance work, home and life I’ll share all my ups and downs with you the reader. You can laugh at me, cry with me or just be angry for me. You can be all 3 if you want. I usually have 3 to 4 feelings in an hour.
I am determined to make my life balanced and worthwhile, I want to raise my kids with ease, save money and work less.
So join me on my journey and feel free to help me with my errors!