To my son

Dear Son,

I write you this letter with hopes that you will read this one day and realize the potential you have as a young man and chose the path that fits you best. Wether it be right or wrong(I hope right) I wish you nothing but success.

On 2/8/18 you stole from me hopefully for the last time. I decided enough was enough and you had to go.

Of course it’s winter time and the only clothes you took with you are suitable for maybe fall. I tired to reach out to you so you could come get warmer clothes and some warm food. You told me twice you’d come but you never showed.

I pray for you every morning and night that you find the right path. I ask myself everyday “where did I go wrong with you!” “Did I do anything wrong?”

I know you didn’t have the easiest time growing up, you did have a rough start being born Pre-maturely,staying in the hospital for 4 months. Being my little bubble boy fighting RSV at the age of 2 and then going through school with ADHD and Depression. If it wasn’t for all of your grandparents I’d probably would have fell apart trying to raise you alone.

Over the years I’ve shown you how to give back and do for others less fortunate, preparing sack lunches handing them out. Giving gift cards for food…..seeing your face of enjoyment when doing that made my heart melt each time.

Knowing your are now out there on the streets with the people I strive to help breaks my heart. I know you have friends to stay with and I know your okay for now. I hope you get things together soon. I’m proud to hear you have been looking for a job.

I want you to know you are my first born, my only son, and my first love. I will never give up on you and I am here for you. I just can’t have you in my house anymore the stealing and disrespect has gotten out of control. I pray one day you will forgive me.

Love mommy

Giving Back/Paying it Foward

Help Me Pay it Foward!

I do what I can in general to help people in need. I have been in the position where I was the one who needed help and thankfully there were people and organizations who helped me. I can’t thank the people and organizations who helped me enough, so I try to do something once a month to help out those who are in need.

I’ve done things like prepare meals, pass out gift certificates for clothes or coffee, donated my time to write resume’s and job applications for those who are looking for employment coming out of prison or who are homeless.

This year I decided to go bigger, get the homeless men, women and kids things they normally cant get because of funds or the shelters don’t have enough supplies.

This month I am preparing basic hygiene bags for men and women. I hope the next time I can do children as well. Just because you might live on the streets doesn’t mean you shouldn’t take care of your self . I believe your hygiene is one of the the first steps to getting the confidence you need to do more.

I have started a Youcaring.com account to help me raised the funds needed because each kit is around $5.00 per person for 8 items, 9 for women. I have put $500 of my own in which will make 100 kits, I am hoping for another 100.

 

Thanks for reading if you can help in anyway that would be appreciated.